Stand still would you please? This is in appreciation to the time that you took to read these. Read more because I was put here to plant seeds. Used to use my gifts… for evil deeds. But I relented and was humbled severely. And I resented anyone who surpassed me. But I repented, now God’s will speaks through me. He speaks and I listen and I write in my tone. No recognition but if I reach just one soul – I accomplished my mission. God’s will is evident. Now I understand the reason…
I played witness to things and was an audience to the obscene. Laughed at pain and gained material things. Now I know why I suffered. Now I know why you suffer. You’re living for the wrong thing.
“If anyone desires to come after Me, let him deny himself, and take up his cross, and follow Me. For whoever desires to save his life will lose it, but whoever loses his life for My sake will find it. For what profit is it to a man if he gains the whole world, and loses his own soul? Or what will a man give in exchange for his soul? For the Son of Man will come in the glory of His Father with His angels, and then He will reward each according to his works.”
Last week I prayed for a solution to one of my problems. Not only did the solution come, but it came in abundance. However, it will not be handed to me. It will take many hours of work and dedication to receive it.
That’s how life works sometimes. We pray or wish for things to happen and expect them to come instantly and with ease. Some blessings require work because the work is where the blessing is.
Lately I’ve been in a funk. I’ve set some new goals for the new year and I’m already wavering on them. I will start off great and then create an excuse to not complete. One day turns into two; two days slowly turn into a week and BOOM… that goal is gone and another one is set.
When you have a bad day you kinda feel like you’re defeated. It brings anxiety because you want to complete the task, but have no desire or strength to do so. Ultimately, you slowly give up.
I’m forcing myself to fight through these moments and work on my goals every day. Even if it’s just 10 minutes, I will try to push myself a little bit further. After all, every second counts..
Wow! What a year! I fought so many silent battles and had so many life changing moments. Some of which I decided to keep offline because I feel that we should keep some things sacred..
This year I learned my power and that I deserve to be happy. I was also reminded of the power of God and of his will.
I lost my beloved dog Pepper. I finally traveled to Africa. I grew more in this year than I have in a while. I’m still growing and I’m still learning.. And I know that 2019 will be another chapter in my beautiful book of life.